Not so similar ... ?

So, I'm having an introspective day today. Brace yourselves.

For some time now I've been noticing that I don't seem to see/perceive things the same way as most. Or I don't understand things the same way. Things Feel different to me than other people. It's disconcerting when a friend and I could see or listen to the same thing and I end up traumatised or end up stuck in a strange head space for a while and the persone I'm with has no idea what's the matter. Not the easyest thing to explain to someone.

Some people have told me it's because reed heads have magical tendancies - which I suppose could be an interesting avenue to explore. From what I understand there are quite a few cultures that have lore and mythology surrounding red headed people in some shape or form. But am I really willing to accept that I'm like psyshic or something ? I think that may be a stretch.. (Although it may explain why people have this strange desire to tell me all about themselves and their most intimate secrets after only having known me for a short while.)

Then I have this need to be exploited and to be pushed harder then I thought woud normally be possible. Most of the time it's my own doing since I very seldome find things that will challenge me in any real way. I was actually pondering going into the army and having them push me really hard and see how well I could do. I like the idea of challenges on a scale. They start small and get harder. I despise monotony. Thinking that if there was one place where they could have demanding programs that would be the place. OR possibly get into a really cool program.

I know I could do more with my life, I just have to figure out what that might be...
I have the potential ....